Once you find out you have been or are being cheated on you change. You no longer trust. Your wall goes back up and it is harder for the next person to break down. Then you add in the emotional abuse that you realized you were going through and that makes it even harder for the next poor soul that wants to get to know you. Why do we let this happen to us?
As time went by things just were not the same. Things ended again. After some months I started to talk to someone else and we were getting along great. We would talk on the phone and he would find a way to get to my house. I guess you would say we were dating but I do not believe that it ever was officially talked about. One night a friend was over and I was talking to him on the phone, well she got on the phone and they was talking and at some point that they exchanged numbers. I did not know this.
After a few days I found out that they had been talking. I thought okay cool my friend is getting along with the guy I am seeing and they are becoming friends. Little did I know they had been hanging out and doing other things behind my back. I thought this girl was my friend and I thought this guy liked me. I guess I was not giving him what he wanted. I was not one to jump into bed right when I met someone.
After hearing them both admit that they were seeing each other behind my back I made some changes. Him and I no longer talked. Her and I only communicated at school. I no longer trusted her as a so-called friend. After a few days of being down and depressed I finally got out of my funk. I started talking to other people again and I started hanging out with others again.
I found myself thinking about my ex. I started finding ways to see him and talk to him. As I hoped I once again found my self drifting back into his arms. It started to seem that no matter what happened to us we always ended back up in each others arms. I do not know why but that seems to be a pattern we had started.
