After going through another bad relationship I was determined to stay single. I directed my time to friends and work. I was able to do more things. Like go to the movies with friends. Driving around town with nowhere to go. I was able to relax and not worry about anything.
Although that was all a very short-lived experience. Even though my eyes had been open to so many things in these short few years, my mind could not stop from wandering back to my ex. What was he doing? Who was he with? What if we were still together? Is he thinking of me too? I also seemed to do this even though he had put me through some hard times, but there is just something about your first love.
Even though I was thinking about him I did not go back I kept my distances. Instead I had started talking to someone he despised. Someone that he once ran off the road with his car. I may or may not have purposely did this. He had cheated on me with someone I despised as well and this was the only way I could get revenge. Little did I know my revenge would be bigger than I could have imagined.
We started talking over the internet because at that time chat rooms were a big thing. We talked about meeting up but I was hesitant. He still lived at home with his dad and he did not work. All I really wanted to do was just talk. I really did not want anything else. Plus we both were a little cautious because of who my ex was. As days went on and we talked more we got closer. We had some of the same interest. Oh and he could sing. Oh my could he sing.
Sometimes when I am kinda out of it and not paying attention to anything around me, I can hear him singing. One time he made me this tape with some songs he had sung. It’s just like everything else though. When you hear a song or drive by an old place, memories of when you heard that particular song or hung out at that place come to mind. This was just the beginning to a chaotic time.